I grabbed my camera this weekend. A camera that I feel I’ve neglected some, due to the ease of an iphone always being handy & the ease instagram provides. It takes me being intentional to actually use my “professional camera” but as my little one who is now, not so little, almost 4, napped. I grabbed that camera and just photographed him intentionally for a solid few minutes. He is at the age where he doesn’t want to nap. He’d much rather protest his nap and play with his brothers. Insisting he is not tired. Yet falling deeply to sleep in the car, on a sofa or in my arms. He is precious and yet at times I feel I am missing it.
Its so easy to get caught up in the busy routines. The drama of life. Housework. Jobs. The heaviness of ministry. The depression of our mind, when we dwell on things we can’t have or situations we wish would be more ideal. We forget to relish in the moments and every day memories all around us. Not realizing, how quickly they go, yet knowing full well it’ll all be gone before we know it.
I use to share more on this blog.
More of our life.
More photos of my boys.
I’ve gotten away from that and realized how much I missed it as I stood there and captured Reed asleep.
I’m going to try and be more intentional with my camera starting in June. Take it with me more and remembering to pause and build memories, beyond an iphone gram. As I imported these images today, I saw imperfections in them. Reed who had been playing outside in the dirt, wasn’t clean. He had a runny nose, that throughout his boy adventures, dried, leaving a less than appealing look. I could have photo-shopped that out. Yet to do that would make the moment not as real. I want to remember the boogers and the dirt. Its part of motherhood :) and most definitely part of being a child.
As my day ended. A day I felt sad about situations surrounding me. Yet so full as I watched my baby sleep. A friend shared this verse with me and I will end this post with it…
“Therefore, my beloved brethren, be steadfast,
immovable, always abounding in the work of
the Lord, knowing that your toil is not in vain.”
– 1 Cor. 15:58