On Friday this weekend… my family and I went to a nearby beach/lake type place about 20 minutes from our home. While our neighborhood has a nice pool for the boys to cool off in, after the same ol’ pool, the boys often want to swim elsewhere. So the lake is a good option and close by. So Friday we went on our way to this lake… Up til this point we had been twice before. Both times enjoying our time there with no issues at all. We’ve noticed if you go on a week day, there is literally no one there. A friday however, seems to be the day people come out.
So we pull up to this lake… and begin to unload and set up our picnic area nearby. This lake has about 10 picnic tables in the shade right by the lake. So its nice to be able to relax, eat a picnic on an actual table, all the while watching your kids play on the shore.
While Travis prepped charcoal for a grill… and I helped baby Reed get into the chips. We all of a sudden heard a lady yell at the top of her longs “HEY KID! Don’t be throwing Sh$* at my kid!!” – My automatic reaction was “Oh no, she better not have said that to my child…” but even more so I was thinking “Who in their right mind is cussing at the volume in front of children!” I had a very big rush of anger hit my entire body and the Mama Bear in me wanted nothing more than to get my COP Husband to arrest her HAHAHA… Although, he obviously had no grounds at that moment.
I cannot even imagine the brokeness my husband has to face daily in his line of work right now. I know he has had to deal with suicides face on… people shooting their brains against the wall or hanging themselves in a bedroom. He also has to deal with families broken and falling apart… spouses going at each other and neighbors bickering over someone stepping foot onto their grass. He see’s it all…. and I know because of that he was able to retain a proper composer better than I was.
I was so upset at that woman that it completely ruined my entire night. I could not relax… and was watching my children like hawks to make sure they stayed away from her. We could hear her continue to drop curse words throughout her conversation with her friends, as she sat in the water smoking a cigarette… but we just spoke to our boys and kept them away.
Her behavior makes me never want to go back to that place.
I am trying very hard to remember that we cannot shelter our children. We can in some degree…. and I believe it is wise to protect our children from the world… but one way or another, our children will hear the F bomb, or random curse words. They will be faced to see the depravity of our world, one day.
Caleb who will turn 10 next week, noticed a magazine cover at a grocery check out the other day. He looked at it and saw Robin William’s’ face on it. He then saw where it had his birth date… and date of his death. Caleb was very confused as to what the two numbers meant and asked me what happened. He knew who Robin William’s was… and ill be honest. I had no intention of telling Caleb he had killed himself…. I didn’t want Caleb to face that truth until he was older. I didn’t feel he needed to. He loved Robin William’s in Jumanji and in Hook. Why tell him he killed himself? … you know? However, in that moment of our conversation Caleb asked me point blank. “How’d he die?” and I knew, I had to be honest. So I told him what happened… and I just saw a very puzzled 9 year old looking back at me and he just said “Why would anyone do that?”
It was sad to have that conversation with Caleb.
It made me sad for him.
The Brokenness of our world is all over… and my prayer is just that my boys would come to know Christ early… and grow in a maturity from a very young age. I want them to be equip for battle against the depravity we face… and know they have a Savior who can see them through.
“And this is my prayer: that your love may abound more and more in knowledge and depth of insight, so that you may be able to discern what is best and may be pure and blameless for the day of Christ, filled with the fruit of righteousness that comes through Jesus Christ—to the glory and praise of God.”
- Phil 1:9-11
The same week I faced this situation at the lake, I also came across randomly a persons instagram account that had photographs of a blogger I followed for years. The photographs looked like paparazzi photos, taken of her, to do nothing more than poke fun. The person created their instagram account to belittle this individual, ridicule… and bully this mom. This person also has a website that is there to expose personal things about this person. From police reports, to bank statements and other information regarding their family. Now while I do not believe the person they are doing all this against is innocent… regardless of what she has done in her life or is doing, NO ONE deserves to be bullied or treated the way this person on instagram is doing… Calling her names like Fat Cow… Check out that Neck, Spare Tire, and so forth… everything about what that person is doing is just complete evidence of our worlds depravity and state. That anyone would think that doing that is right, is beyond me.
… and yet, we live in a world today, that would actually allow this type of person to accumulate followers who agree with her bullying ways, as if her words are justified by the way this mom is living.
Where have we gone? What is wrong with people!?
Satan has got a grip on peoples hearts – people are literally blind to their wrongs.
The night we came home from that beach… while I felt very weighed and heavy by what had happened… my husband ended our evening, with a family devotional time. He tries to do this every night with the boys. This particular evening a neighbors boy happened to be over. We asked him if he wanted to join and he said yes. This young boy who I believe is 8, sat on our couch… heard my husband speak about how much God has done for us… and ended the time with songs of praise. We sang songs like the Doxology… and this young boy who said “I’ve never even heard these songs but I like them!” – sang along with us and ended the evening praising God from whom all blessings flow, without even realizing I am sure what he was saying.
All we can do is learn to be a light in this dark world….
I don’t think my light shined very bright at that beach :) – but I know the Lord was pleased with our end to the evening by inviting that boy to be a part. Even tho part of me didn’t want him there – ashamed as I am to admit that. Even those with good intentions can be selfish. I would not be where I am or who I am without God working in my heart too. Cause really without him, I can be pretty harsh myself… Thankful for Grace.