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Broken

IMG_9468I spoke briefly about this on my instagram over the weekend… but thought I would speak about it in more detail on my blog.

On Friday this weekend… my family and I went to a nearby beach/lake type place about 20 minutes from our home. While our neighborhood has a nice pool for the boys to cool off in, after the same ol’ pool, the boys often want to swim elsewhere. So the lake is a good option and close by. So Friday we went on our way to this lake… Up til this point we had been twice before. Both times enjoying our time there with no issues at all. We’ve noticed if you go on a week day, there is literally no one there. A friday however, seems to be the day people come out.

So we pull up to this lake… and begin to unload and set up our picnic area nearby. This lake has about 10 picnic tables in the shade right by the lake. So its nice to be able to relax, eat a picnic on an actual table, all the while watching your kids play on the shore.

While Travis prepped charcoal for a grill… and I helped baby Reed get into the chips. We all of a sudden heard a lady yell at the top of her longs “HEY KID! Don’t be throwing Sh$* at my kid!!” – My automatic reaction was “Oh no, she better not have said that to my child…” but even more so I was thinking “Who in their right mind is cussing at the volume in front of children!” I had a very big rush of anger hit my entire body and the Mama Bear in me wanted nothing more than to get my COP Husband to arrest her HAHAHA… Although, he obviously had no grounds at that moment.

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I cannot even imagine the brokeness my husband has to face daily in his line of work right now. I know he has had to deal with suicides face on… people shooting their brains against the wall or hanging themselves in a bedroom. He also has to deal with families broken and falling apart… spouses going at each other and neighbors bickering over someone stepping foot onto their grass. He see’s it all…. and I know because of that he was able to retain a proper composer better than I was.

I was so upset at that woman that it completely ruined my entire night. I could not relax… and was watching my children like hawks to make sure they stayed away from her. We could hear her continue to drop curse words throughout her conversation with her friends, as she sat in the water smoking a cigarette… but we just spoke to our boys and kept them away.

Her behavior makes me never want to go back to that place.

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I am trying very hard to remember that we cannot shelter our children. We can in some degree…. and I believe it is wise to protect our children from the world… but one way or another, our children will hear the F bomb, or random curse words. They will be faced to see the depravity of our world, one day.

Caleb who will turn 10 next week, noticed a magazine cover at a grocery check out the other day. He looked at it and saw Robin William’s’ face on it. He then saw where it had his birth date… and date of his death. Caleb was very confused as to what the two numbers meant and asked me what happened. He knew who Robin William’s was… and ill be honest. I had no intention of telling Caleb he had killed himself…. I didn’t want Caleb to face that truth until he was older. I didn’t feel he needed to. He loved Robin William’s in Jumanji and in Hook. Why tell him he killed himself? … you know? However, in that moment of our conversation Caleb asked me point blank. “How’d he die?” and I knew, I had to be honest. So I told him what happened… and I just saw a very puzzled 9 year old looking back at me and he just said “Why would anyone do that?”

It was sad to have that conversation with Caleb.

It made me sad for him.

The Brokenness of our world is all over… and my prayer is just that my boys would come to know Christ early… and grow in a maturity from a very young age. I want them to be equip for battle against the depravity we face… and know they have a Savior who can see them through.


And this is my prayer: that your love may abound more and more in knowledge and depth of insight, so that you may be able to discern what is best and may be pure and blameless for the day of Christ, filled with the fruit of righteousness that comes through Jesus Christ—to the glory and praise of God.
- Phil 1:9-11

The same week I faced this situation at the lake, I also came across randomly a persons instagram account that had photographs of a blogger I followed for years. The photographs looked like paparazzi photos, taken of her, to do nothing more than poke fun. The person created their instagram account to belittle this individual, ridicule… and bully this mom. This person also has a website that is there to expose personal things about this person. From police reports, to bank statements and other information regarding their family. Now while I do not believe the person they are doing all this against is innocent… regardless of what she has done in her life or is doing, NO ONE deserves to be bullied or treated the way this person on instagram is doing… Calling her names like Fat Cow… Check out that Neck, Spare Tire, and so forth… everything about what that person is doing is just complete evidence of our worlds depravity and state. That anyone would think that doing that is right, is beyond me.

… and yet, we live in a world today, that would actually allow this type of person to accumulate followers who agree with her bullying ways, as if her words are justified by the way this mom is living.

IMG_9496-3Where have we gone? What is wrong with people!?

Satan has got a grip on peoples hearts – people are literally blind to their wrongs.

The night we came home from that beach… while I felt very weighed and heavy by what had happened… my husband ended our evening, with a family devotional time. He tries to do this every night with the boys. This particular evening a neighbors boy happened to be over. We asked him if he wanted to join and he said yes. This young boy who I believe is 8, sat on our couch… heard my husband speak about how much God has done for us… and ended the time with songs of praise. We sang songs like the Doxology… and this young boy who said “I’ve never even heard these songs but I like them!” – sang along with us and ended the evening praising God from whom all blessings flow, without even realizing I am sure what he was saying.

All we can do is learn to be a light in this dark world….

I don’t think my light shined very bright at that beach :) – but I know the Lord was pleased with our end to the evening by inviting that boy to be a part. Even tho part of me didn’t want him there – ashamed as I am to admit that. Even those with good intentions can be selfish. I would not be where I am or who I am without God working in my heart too. Cause really without him, I can be pretty harsh myself… Thankful for Grace.

It’s just a move.

IMG_0017copyMy parents who lived in Charlotte, NC… moved yesterday.

From my childhood home.

A house I spent from  age 3 or 4, to age 19 (when I got married).

A house where I sat as a child but also an adult, married, pregnant and with my children, throughout the years. Its the house my parents became grandparents in… and a home that holds so many childhood memories, all very vivid still today.

My parents are both retired now… and while I may not have understood their move completely… one thing I am realizing, is…

It’s just a move…

A hard one. For more than one person in this case… but a move.

As I thought yesterday of someone new moving into my old bed room… of new children exploring the back yard and creek… of different things up on the wall… and new smells and people entering those walls, parts of those thoughts, made me sad.

I think it should make anyone sad.

That is a lot to let go of…

As I sat yesterday, I looked around at my home. A beautiful 5 bedroom house that the Lord most obviously blessed us with… A home I wanted… and yet at times find myself discontent because of the unknown with Travis’ job. At times finding it hard to be, in the now… wondering when God might uproot us again.

IMG_9364copyIn our 1st 10 years of marriage we moved 8 times.

8….

Twice before Caleb was born.

Twice in Ohio (so Twice before Taite was born)

Twice back in NC before Owen was born.

and Twice since being in GA.

We have had a new baby in every city we moved too. We joke if we move again God may give us more HAH!

My parents today will be moving into a rental, while they figure out what the next step is. They will reside in a new city… a little closer to us (but still a bit of a drive)… around new people… new stores… and new things to see. It will be new for them.

Different…. and unfamiliar.

I know from personal experience… you will have days where you miss the old days and the old house… I still have moments where I miss our small parsonage back in NC… as much as I hated the small kitchen it had for many years we lived in it… the memories it held when my first two children grew up in that home for 4 years…  will forever and always be special to me, regardless of how we left.

Life here on earth is temporary.

“We are here for only a moment,

visitors and strangers in the land as our ancestors were before us.

Our days on earth are like a passing shadow, gone so soon without a trace.

- 1 Chronicles 29:!5

 

Some people stay planted for 25-40 years in one spot. Others like us, move every 2-4 years. It is just how it is.

One thing I am trying really hard to do though, is relish in the now… and remember that the walls around us, don’t matter in the end. Enjoy the memories… the pictures… and the move… one thing I always tell my boys when we move is… “To Consider it an Adventure!” :) – and always try to make it fun….

Vacation Stop 3 – My BFFS :)

I totally forgot to post photos from our 3rd stop on our trip last month!

Got to busy :) – our 3rd stop was to visit my best friend Shannon and her husband Stevie. Shannon and I met at a home school group years ago when I lived in NC. Yall who follow my blog know the story ;-) – so I wont revisit it with each visit to Shannons haha… but in short. Love her. Cannot imagine life without her. Shes a true blessing and I consider her family. Our children love her kids too! They miss them a lot. So any time we visit, it is bitter sweet.

Here are a few photos from the visit…

The Invasion of the house Begins :)

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Pre-New Bathing suit. My bathingsuit was so droopy! >.<

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These 2… <3

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Shannon’s oldest. Hes so well behaved it will make you want to just take him home forever.

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The Dudes

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Shannon Dives

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I pray for warmth

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While in NC, we also got to see some old friends from the town we lived in. So good to see them all.
Our kids miss their kids and could not believe how big everyone had gotten.

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We attempted a group photo of all the kids. Total fail ;-) but at least entertaining.

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Vacation 2014 – The Wood Farm

On most of our vacations the last few years. We use a good majority of the time seeing Travis’ side of the family. From his dads home to our home… I believe is roughly a 8-9 hour drive, depending on traffic and stops. Its a ways to travel… and with his dad being a farmer, its hard for him to ever leave. So we make the trip most years and our boys enjoy life on the farm for a while ;-) – I think they are citified a bit, so it is an adjustment from life in Atlanta… however its so beautiful and they sure do love the freedom of riding a golf cart! Here a few photos from the stay.

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No stay on a farm is complete without some trucks or legos.

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The gross line down Reed’s bib was some sorta food. Gross.
He is going through a major drooling phase!

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Travis and his sister Tracy. Tracy I believe is 10 years older than Travis.
I dont mean to out that as a way to say shes “older” :)
She though was like Travis’ 2nd mama.

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Aren’t these onions beautiful?!

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Golf Cart Love.

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Flash Back time – This was last years visit.

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Little old house on the farm. Its furnished inside 2.
Forgot to take a photo tho :-\ – but its so cute!

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Reed had gotten his clothing messy… so diaper baby on the farm it was.

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He didn’t seem to mind.

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I was sad the blue berries weren’t ready.

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View from the backside of the strawberry fields.

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He knows hes cute.

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& So skinny!!

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Yea… we don’t get it either Owen :)

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& at the end of most days. We just relaxed at his Dads house.
Chatted… and ate way to much food.

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G’Nite!

2014 Vacation – Day 1-3 – Creation Museum

ED9A1019-2Thought I would do these post in segments to help organize it a bit. We went out of town for almost 2 solid weeks… visiting Ohio to see the Creation Museum. Yes… its a long way to go… honestly not sure Id do it again haha… If we had a re-do Id prob. go to the beach or something instead… but our kids really wanted to go and since Kids are FREE all year right now, I figured this was the year to do it. Also the hotel we stayed at gave us two free adult passes (good for 2 days), so the entire visit to the museum was free. So you can’t beat that. Still, long drive. We headed that way 5pm on Sunday 2 weeks ago :) – after Travis got home from work. We arrive in Ohio at 1:30am!! ridiculous lol. We then had to make up a pack-n-play and then set up a sleeper sofa… as there was a bit of confusion with the hotel room situation. Lets just say the following day I felt like a mom with a newborn who needed sleep badly :) – we pressed on and saw part of the museum the 1st day… the rest the 2nd day. Truth be told. This museum is not meant for small kids. Its way to involved and if you go with kids under 7, you will miss a lot. Caleb was the only one really interested in reading during the museum… the other boys just wanted to rush through to see the dinosaurs. Its ok tho. We spent time together and had fun at the hotel pool, etc… Here are some photos…

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We have no idea why Reed raises his hands during photos. Its so cute tho :)

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He was a bit scared of the raptor :) – do you blame him?

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I found the bug part of the museum fascinating. Although I hate bugs!

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When I look at the bugs, I see so many amazing differences in them… such detail. God is so amazing. I have had a few people mention to me how they would never go to this museum because they do not believe in the “NEW EARTH” thing. Thats a huge debate right now. Is our world NEW or OLD… Has it been here for 1,000′s or millions? Its something believers and unbelievers constantly go at each other on… and honestly even Christians vs. Christians go at each other in regards to who is right and who is wrong….

My thoughts?

I think we serve an amazing God. A God who created each of us unique… A God who formed this world and every detail…. I do not believe we came from an explosion or evolved from apes or tiny cells. Got breathed into us life and I believe the Bible for exactly what it says.

I don’t know how old the earth is… but honestly I think so often believers get hung up on these facts and “things” that it does nothing more than cause divides. Im completely for educating one self… I for one am not smart enough to understand it all :) – I leave that for the PHD peeps and scholars who can grasp things I can’t. However… If my best friend believed the earth was a million years old and I believe it was 1,000′s of years old… it would be ok. As long as she had a belief in Christ… and who he was and what he did for us… and lived according to the scriptures… I could care less if she believe we lived in an OLD earth. I want my loved ones to know Christ. Not the age of our world…

Any how, thats my lil soap box.

Will post more vacation photos eventually :) Off to the pool now!