Step back 15 years… Had you interviewed me in high school, I would have never imagined life at 32, to look like my life today. I remember in high school seeing movies like 13 going on 30… I imagined my 30s at that time, to look a lot different.
When I 1st got married I was 19 years old. I had turned 19, 6 months prior to my wedding. I was such a baby! In fact when I meet teenagers today who are like 17… most baby sitting my boys :) and I think about how 2 years after my 17th birthday, I was a married woman… I just can’t imagine it for that 17 year old I am talking to. Not that it be bad for her or him… but its just funny how now at 32, when I meet teens that age, it seems just out of the question for them to marry as young as I did. Yet, I am evidence and there are many other amazing mothers/wives out there, who are examples of successful marriages and life as young brides.
When I first became a mom at 21… many of my friends had either just graduated high school… or had signed up for their 2nd year in college.
By the time I had my 2nd, those same friends were still in school… finishing up their degrees.
Yet, here I was. A mom of two. Wife. Pastors wife.
Life at 23 for me was a lot different than at 32. Over the last 10 years I have gained a confidence in myself that I never had at 23.
I remember at times in our early years of marriage, wanting and wondering what life would have been like had I gone to college. I remember many days while up feeding a newborn… or dealing with a sick toddler, feeling depressed over the fact I was house bound with kids… while I knew so many my age had things so different.
I have such vivid memories of Satan pouring lies into my soul (some I believed) over how “things could be better…” how “I could be happier, if…”
and at times Satan got the best of me… and I would fall into pits of depression… and picture my life differently. Resulting in discontentment… coveting…
I am so thankful for grace… and mercy… and forgiveness. Despite my struggles in my 20’s, the Lord always brought me back… and revealed such truth.
My life according to society may be backwards.
Did you know the average age of a bride is 27-29.
The average age a woman becomes a mother now is 30.
Nothing at all wrong with that btw…
We each do things at different times… no one should ever compare or doubt their life based on anothers.
I am so thankful I was that 19 year old bride.
Who became a mom at 21.
I am thankful I have a spouse of almost 13 years now, who gets me. Now more than then. Not because we had fluffy marriage moments with hugs, kisses and fairy tale stories. Our marriage was full of doubts, arguments, miscommunications and even hurts… but through our struggles, God has created something so much stronger and better. I am glad neither of us gave up. :)
Our bank account may never be as secure as a couple who starts much later in life. Our grocery bill may look insane and unimaginable by many. I may never experience the trips to Hawaii or sight seeing in Europe… but my 32 could not be much sweeter.
I am thankful for each year… new gray hair and all that emerges. :D [I’ve only seen 3!! that is good right?]
All of my life today, has been a gift from Christ.
I would not be where I am today, had it not been for His working in my life.
Thankful at 32, to be a wife. A mother. A Pastors wife… but most of all, I’m thankful for my salvation… and for the Lords hand on each year.
I am blessed.
“I have learned that in every circumstance that comes my way, I can choose to respond in one of two ways: I can whine or I can worship! And I can’t worship without giving thanks. It just isn’t possible. When we choose the pathway of worship and giving thanks, especially in the midst of difficult circumstances, there is a fragrance, a radiance, that issues forth out of our lives to bless the Lord and others.”
Nancy Leigh DeMoss, Choosing Gratitude: Your Journey to Joy