It is now 3:33am – friday morning.
As you all may or may not have known, I traveled to Memphis TN this week – to attend the Genesis Workshop.
From Tuesday morning – Thursday – I attended this workshop… that consisted of around 40 photographers around the globe. My friend Melanie Mansfield and her husband Jeff were 2 of the instructions in this workshop.
All I can say is wow.
Between them and the others, there was so much to learn.. soak up and attempt to apply :) – I will admit after the 1st day I felt overwhelmed, excited, confused and unsure all at once.
So many things to consider… think about… change… apply.
I honestly believe I will need weeks, if not months to gather my thoughts… maybe because of the time this took place, with holidays in the air… traveling with family and the winter months ahead… I see so many areas I want to change in the way I run my business… but also at the same time know that our situation is so different right now.
We don’t know how long we will live here.
It may be 1 year, it may be 2 or more.
I would love to have more children, but with the loss of a job, loss of real health insurance, and the uncertainty of so many things, I just don’t know if that is wise right now. Yet at the same time, it really is a great desire of mine.
Finding balance between motherhood… being a wife… possibly entering full time ministry again, home schooling, and just life in general, is a lot. My being a photographer I LOVE – I know I have talent (although at times this weekend I felt so small). I know that with polishing I could be very successful… but putting everything together, and figuring out how to work it all… is so confusing for me.
That being said.
I am so thankful I went to Genesis.
I am thankful for Mel for working it out so I could even go. I don’t feel like I deserved it at all.
I look forward to applying what I learned in the sessions to come.
Now at 3:51 – after I gathered my thoughts… I am off to TRY and sleep. I arrived home last night after 9pm – over 7 hrs of driving, by my self… you would of thought I would crash and sleep all night… I think between the thoughts in my head… the stuffy nose and sore throat I seem to have attained after days in the cold ;-) – and a baby waking at 2am… I just needed to sit down and write.
Tomorrow (today really) will be filled with watching the kids, as my husband is out… My day will be filled with washing linens to prepare for our guest coming in late friday night ;-) – a possible run out to figure out wardrobe ideas for our family portraits this weekend… I hope to bake a few loaves of bread and a few dozen cinnamon rolls as well.
So thankful btw for my husband for watching my sweet boys while away. Despite a mishap with Owens hair… :-\
Also thank you to Nichole. Our sweet neighbor and new friend for providing dinner for my boys as well as some childcare. Her daughter Madison is amazing with our boys. Travis was able to get some things done while she held the fort down.
& possibly… just possibly, tomorrow ill download my card from the week… to share more :)
4:03…. and out.
